just a sentence-meaningful to me

last night, i before i went to my bed, i thought about 'life'.. suddenly it comes across my mind.. most people never appreciate for what they had.. i meant, they have that precious thing, but they still want to get other thing which is more precious and valueable for them eventhough they themselve even can't afford to have that such thing.. what a life!after thinking deeply about life, i start to appreciate for what i have.. god, family, friends, n my love one.. they all completed my life.. one pieces of puzzle for my life that lose, i've found it.. i'm happy now.. more moreee happy than before..

then suddenly, he called me and said one thing :-

him: semenjak ku couple ngau nuan, ku dae fikir org laen da..
me : betul ke?
him: betul la.. t suba ku laen bha..
me: laen bkni?
him: laen mh.. t suba ku gila indu bha..
me: waww, now?
him : nda.. ku laen da diatok.. mls da ku coz ku da bc nuan..
me : ;')
(translate la kedirik sia- i'm using aku n nuan, look much better xD)

i trust u, i miss u, i love u..

KBYE!

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i'm moving to my past tonight

HE'S YOUR PAST AND I'M YOUR FUTURE

someone dat used to be mine will know who's saying is this belong to..

i guess, i'm going to move to my past tonight.. dont know why, i keep on thinking about people that used to be living in my past.. someone that's hurting me, backstabbed me, cheat on me, gave me hopes and someone that make me believe in them.. how are they now? that question keeps on playing on my mind.. i dont know why.. seriously.. theres no way that i miss them.. NO WAY!! i hate all of them.. ALL.. keep on thinking about those s**t that happened, it make me burst into tears.. it ruin my night.. it ruin my beauty sleep.. it ruined EVERYTHING! why should u guys come across my mind again? whyyy? let's forget everything and continue my journey to the future.. past, goodbye :')

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i need a timemachine

exam result? timemachine? apa kaitan?

well, look..

i'd burst into tears just now after looking at all of my exam paper.. and see the result, it's the worst nightmare ever.. after years of being a student, i never have a result like what i get now.. if i was given a chance to turn back time, i would turn it to a month ago so that i could be prepared completely bfore the exam.. i guess, this is what i got for studying last minute.. seriously, i'd regret.. when receiving some of my exam paper last 2 days, i shocked.. then i asked myself.. "u must be kidding me.. is this my exam paper? r u sure? f--k off!" i dun believed that my name was written on dat exam paper.. well, yah, its my paper.. my handwriting n my name were written on dat paper.. i have to accept the fact.. this time, all of my results, all DROPPPP! only 2 papers have some improvement.. my moral n physic.. but others, smua merosot berpuluh-puluh n berbelas-belas markah.. damn it!

when i'm express the matter to others, they pointed their finger on my face..

this is what i get from them..

" nya la ku mdh suba.. te ati bmain jak.. cuba la serious sikit"

" ang x belajar nuan, dady nuan da complain ary nya mdh nuan makin ari makin malas"

the first saying is from HIM.. during exam, i never played ouky? i'm juz spending my day on games only during holidays.. i'm not playing around.. :'(

n the second saying is from my mum.. its kinda hurting me.. is it true.. am i getting lazy even when i'm reading the book almost all the time during the exam? is dat lazy? well, ouky then.. :(

my fault? i guess yea.. its ouky.. rily ouky.. now, i dunno to whom will i let go of this disappointment.. juz now, i let go of it by listening to some rohani songs.. it did comfort me a bit..

well, learnt from mistake kn?

ouky..

bye

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thru the phone

its been a long time i didn't hear ur voice n suddenly tonight u called me for more than an hour.. sriously, i mishhhh u!
tonight, we shared about "them".. the one that used to be in our past, our ex's.. then u did told me something that i can't ever forget..
"saya setia pada yang satu"
keep it, mean it, prove it.. cause u know what? u're drivin me crazyyy.. the moment when u told me about her, that she still wants u as hers, i felt "jelly".. geezz! >< n tonight, i juz knew dat, HER, a friend of mine, use to like u before uh? apuuuu! i hate it.. see, the one dat i love, for sure she like them too.. damn annoyed.. gahhh!
but i trust u, u wont be like "them" kn?

I HEART U!

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first meet 28.05.2012

today, on 3.00++ p.m - 5.00++ p.m, i met him.. my 1st expression, "he's him? he's mine? wowww ;D " then, after entering the car, i see him smiling.. gahh.. spending 2 hours of my lifetime with him, itz the moment dat i will never ever try to forget.. itz the best moment ever! damnn, i love u syg..

seriously, the moment when u hug me in ur arm, the moment when u hold my hand, the moment when u looked at me n the moment when u put ur head on my shoulder, i felt i dun want u to let go.. u comfort me a lot.. like wat others said, the world is belong to us..2 hours time, itz just like 2 sec of lifetime i'd spent with u.. damn, i rily want to make u to be mine..

the first time i saw u,
 i gave u my trust,
 i gave u my heart,
 i gave u my love,
 n yahh, the thing that "they" always asked from me, the reason why that moment was written in my diary n the reason why the bond was broken.. is my cares..
i gave all of them to u start from our first eye contact..
sayang, don't promised me, but prove it to me the thing that u whispered to me.. love me forever.. dont let someone else share ur heart n the position with me.. i sayang u ketat2! seriously, i do..
prove it, stay by my side no matter what happen, for forever.. ;')

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TENTANG KITA

tonight, after struggling with additional mathematic, dunno why, i keep on staring at my hp screen.. waiting for his text.. then suddenly i think about my past.. when we meet.. 

on that dayy.....

30.10.2011

'pop' sound is heard to show dat one chat received.. well, from an unknown one.. it's u.. i still remember.. on dat tym, we're both taken by our special one.. we chat chat n chat until we get closer to each other.. honestly, on dat tym, i didn't have tym n mood to communicate with someone new.. but dunno why, i did replied ur chat.. 

day by day, we keep on chatting.. well, for short, everytym we both were on9, there must be a pop sound, n datz u! am getting more comfortable to b a part of ur life as friend.. 

around december last year, i still remember, u did make a confession to me.. but,my heart was still taken although physically, i was single.. bout ur confession, i didn't take it seriously as i dun want to give u any hopes.. well, hoping for something dat we never sure will be ours is hard kan.. 

then, a few weeks later, i'm taken.. we start to be apart.. but after i'm clashed with him, we still contact wth each other.. but not as closer like before..

then on january, i'm taken again.. but we still contact each other, thru phone or chatting.. i admit, its nice to contact with u.. ;)

but i never thought, dat day, 11 march 2012, u're mine.. my boy.. honestly, in early days couple, i only admire u.. my heart? even me myself can't find it.. 

day by day, week by week, month by month, my heart completely all about u.. i heart u start on one sunny day until now.. many thing did happened but surprisingly, it dont even make us fighting or quarelling.. there was once when u told me about ur ex-girl.. she wants u back kan? honestly, i'm afraid that u'll fall again to her.. but u did make me trust u again.. remember this? "bie sayau ke bbe siku aja" i trust u darl.. 

itz been two months ++ u're mine, we never fight over something.. even sometime especially on this exam week n some days before, u took a longgggggg time to reply one single text from me.. n i felt u dun have any time for me.. aku rasa dipinggirkan.. but berkat kesabaran yang ada, aku stay, silent n just keep it into myself.. i dun want juz because of dat single matter, it make us start to fight n fight n fight.. still remember the day when i told u about my dream? its rily freaking me out.. i'm scared if it do happen.. i dun want to lose u.. rily, i dont.. 

LINTON JUBIN THIEN, promise me, no matter what happen, dont let go of my hands.. cause i really get into u right now.. I HEART YOU!

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new hair

yesterday, me n my sista curling up our hair.. well, for gawai bha.. xD i'm quite satified with da hair do.. so, bubye natural hair! gonna miss u! :'(

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ILY ;))

we'd been together for 2 months already since 11.o3.2012.. well, i heart him so muchh! i admit, before i met him, the last day i rily felt wat's love was on 17.12.2010.. dat's da last day.. the days onward, i never felt it anymore.. i start to forget, i'm cheating, i'm deceiving, n i never appreciate.. honestly, after dat day, i was trauma with a thing dat we called 'LOVE'.. i start to afraid to love, to trust, to accept, to fall, n to admire.. coz to me, L.O.V.E is hurting, frustrating, wasting, lies, n cheating.. all i know is, wanted to have fun, wants a revenge.. no different juz like a pleasure-seeking girl.. it took a longggg tym for me to know the real meaning of love, again..

but after two years, i met again with sumone dat give me the meaning.. the true meaning of love.. i knew him for months.. n never tot he'll be mine.. i heart him, i adore him, i like him.. but on diz 2 months, there's exist sumone dat used to be in his past.. she wants him to getback.. sayang, i trust u.. i trust ur words,"bie xkn pulai g ya.. bie da bc bbe deyh.." 

remember this? ;)

"bie ka serious dalam relationship kali tok"

"bie ngae cari orang laen da"

i trust u soooo much! its not easy for me to trust n moreover to accept boys' promises.. but i did trust u n i did accept ur promises.. seriously, i heart u! hope, it will be last forever.. ;))

aishiteru

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it's okay :')

she called me juz now.. well, yahh.. itz comfort me a bit from before when  my tears drop moment came.. damn! never tot i'm diz weak to face any friendship problems.. seriously, i'm tougher in facing love problem rather than friendship's.. why? coz aku syg kwn aku gylak2! if can, i dun want to lose any of them.. seriously, i love u girls so much!

p/s: kay, thanks for calling me.. at least u comfort me a bit.. :')

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really?

this.. if she means YOU,

should i trust this or itz just some saying from my friend to me so dat we'll be back again like before? if this is true, ask herself to tell me dat she rily2 want me to forgive her.. i will forgive her if she sincerely wants me to do so.. just that, itz hard for me to give my apology as i dun want people to repeat the same mistake n i'm da one dat will suffer with all the pains.. once, i olredy push aside my ego only to make our friendship becomes normal like before.. but what did u do? instead of pushing aside ur ego too, u juz simply said dat u're much2 cmfortable be there without me.. u know how hurts i am? did u ever think how i feel? should it be my fault now? u know right, my ego is my pride.. n i'm willing to push it aside juz to make our friendship like before.. u said diz n dat n it ends up like itz my fault.. well, itz okay.. but remember, there's never be a second chance in my life.. n datz mean, there will never be 'one day' dat i'm willing to push aside my ego like before.. u want my apology? come n approach me, cause my heart is owez open for someone dat rily wants me back to b part of their life as friend.. n i will forgive u completely n accept u with an open heart..

i'm waiting.. 

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one day

yesterday, on 11++ pm we're get back from kuching.. in the car, when we're on our way to sarikei, we passed da IPTAR' s signboard, where he further his study.. damn! feel so disappointed dat i can't meet him before i'm going back.. n i felt so guilty.. it seems like i give him hope dat i can meet him yesterday.. but i cancelled it suddenly as we have no time n my parents used da car.. 

bie, one day we'll meet.. ouky? :'))

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keep strong!

well, live sometimes being unfair, n it sometimes become so damn AWESOME!! but when it comes to UNFAIR, for sure, there will be some problems dat we'd to face no matter how hard we try to run away from facing the truth.. i used to be in dat ctuation.. it seems so hard for me to face the truth.. but know what? the more i faced all the problems, the stronger i become.. the better i am.. more confident i get.. well, live must keep moving on.. if u can't fly, run.. if u can't run, walk.. if u can't walk, crawl.. no matter what happens, we must keep moving forward... tears drop moment? itz okay.. it didn't mean dat we're weak.. itz just, we'd been strong for too long.. 

me, in my life.. i never stop facing my tough moment.. seriously, sumtimes i feel i can't moving on n i owez ask myself,

 "how can i bear with all this?"

"how i can keep moving forward?"

"am i strong enough to face all this situation?"

but there's some way i do for me to keep stepforward.. one of them is praying.. i keep on asking from my father in heaven to give me more strength so that i could face all this.. well, from this, i can keep calm.. n some other way is, i search for some quotes dat could give me some inspiration dat can motivate me dat live is a long journey and also a wonderful gift.. by this, it makes me realised dat we shouldn't waste our life just because of some problems dat have a way to be solved.. 

well, 

JUST KEEP STRONG!

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FRIEND

WHAT is dat supposed to mean?
to me,
FRIENDS is..
sumone dat never backstab their own friend..
sumone dat will owez be there with their friends no matter what happened..
sumone dat owez give supports..
sumone dat never talk shit bout their friend
sumone dat can be trusted..
sumone dat knew our painfulness even when we're laughing..
sumone dat can rily understand their friend..

but, did i ever meet a friend like dat?
i guess yah..
out of 10, myb 2 to 3..
naa, we dunno what our friend did to us behind us kn?
let  them, ignore them..
juz live our life to the fullest!

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